“Sometimes you win, sometimes you learn.” That’s really resonated with me ever since our decision to drop at mile 80 of the Burning River 100 Mile Endurance Run. I could go into great detail about it (lack of proper training for technical trails, a huge difference in mileage from expected distance from aid station to aid station) but now that the event is more than two weeks over, I think it’s best to move on.
To be honest, the physical recovery was nothing compared to the mental one. I beat myself hard for a week then again for another week about my lack of finish. Do I really not have what it takes? Am I just average not capable of anything extraordinary? These were the kinds of questions that played over and over in my head for what seemed to be every waking minute. I wasn’t myself regardless of the fact that I had run 40 more miles than I ever had in my life. The most was 40 miles during training this summer and the longest race being a 50K back in January and February.
For the record, I’m certain that we are capable of doing 100 miles and mark my word that we will. Keys 100, perhaps? Who knows. But it’s going to be another epic journey nonetheless.
This past weekend PJ and I did Tough Mudder Pittsburgh/Ohio Valley on Saturday and it was everything we needed, at least that’s how it seemed to me. We finished, maybe not as many laps as we were hoping for, but we finished. It was three hours of endorphin junkie fun. I realized, again, how much happiness running brings me and it reminded me of the bond it creates amongst others that you don’t find out in everyday life.
With so many events ahead for us both I’m looking forward to seeing our success this fall. We’ll be following the same training schedule as we did in training for Burning River 100 with some tweaks. I’m going to focus more on speed (incorporating some two-a-days) as I try to greatly improve my marathon PR at NYC Marathon this November. PJ will keep the long runs as he will take on World’s Toughest Mudder this November and try for 75 miles over 24 hours. That’s WITH obstacles so, yeah, amazing.
Oh, and eating ourselves silly with no worries has been pretty great too. We’ve managed to finish off an entire ice cream cake, multiple pizzas, part of another cake, Thurman burgers (excuse me while I wipe the drool). The downtime from training has been great but I’m ready to go again. Trying to regain some speed for a good marathon time won’t be easy but like a post-race meal of kale salad..who the hell wants that?